Autoimmune, Toxins, & Organic. Or...Why I Shouldn't Cheat
You see, I paid a big price recently for cheating, and I only have myself to blame!
And frankly, I’m ashamed!
Don’t be so hard on myself?
ah, but I should be.
Because I teach other autoimmuners how to go from hopeless to revitalized. I teach them what to avoid, and what to do, all so they can participate in their lives again.
I, personally, used to be so sick that I mourned my old self.
My life was slowly deteriorating into an abyss, and I couldn’t seem to stop it. Days filled with sitting, staring at the floor, zombie-like, for hours because I didn’t have the energy to actually do anything. I couldn’t even watch TV or talk on the phone as that was too much stimulation for my brain to process.
My life was filled with trying this supplement or that one. Eliminating the things I loved to eat from my life was difficult but necessary to find what was triggering my symptoms. I started off eliminating gluten! If you aren't an autoimmuner, you have no idea the struggle that is!
Everything comforting has gluten in it! Pasta, pizza, bread, did I mention bread!?
When that only helped a little, I then had to eliminate soy. Now to some of you that probably isn't a big deal, but I'm married to a Japanese chef!!! He looked at me as if I'd suddenly gone insane when I asked him not to use shoyu in his cooking. Ah, but love conquers all, and he begrudgingly did it.
And then, then I had to give up the love of my life!
No, not my husband, he has stuck by me. I'm talking about cheese! As dairy was the next thing voted off the island...
But the "one" thing I eliminated that had the biggest impact on my health was eliminating food-like substances. You know, all the items in a store not on the aisle labeled 'health food.' The items with ingredients that only a scientist can pronounce because it was they who developed it...
But even with all that, it wasn't enough, and I was still sliding down into the abyss...
But after God connected some radicle dots for me I started to learn about cellular health, and with that, I started my slow climb out of that abyss.
Why was it slow?
Because it took me years to piece together all the research and implement the protocol I use today. But once I got that final piece in place my health skyrocketed and I am a normal person again today.
So what went wrong?
I got too confident. Period.
Now on one hand that actually speaks to my recovery. That I had recovered so much that I was confident enough to think I could cheat.
But, on the other hand, what that also speaks to is that I didn’t take my warnings seriously! And that is what I am ashamed of.
So what happened?
My good intentioned husband came home with poison and not being one to waste things I decided to eat it.
It went like this:
husband: I got you a treat today from the store, I think you’ll really like it
me: *eyebrows shooting up with excitement* what is it?
husband: It’s in the freezer
me: *knowing smile* *opens door knowing there would be ice cream*
me: *face falls*
husband: But I thought you liked peanut butter cups?
me: I do, but that famous brand of peanut butter cups are full of toxins and I shouldn’t eat it… but since we have it I will eat this up but please don’t buy anymore.
And that my friend was the beginning of the end…
Every night for over two weeks I had a small bowl of poison.
Now, I’m not always the brightest bulb in the package and as my health started to deteriorate, I NEVER put the two and two together.
But I didn’t… until I did.
I started to get lethargic again, running out of energy by the end of the day. I also started getting a bit of brain fog. Blowing it off as just an extra busy day or whatever other excuse I could use.
But then it dawned on me! I have been poisoning myself slowly over the past two weeks.
How stupid could I be!? (don’t answer that)
So Wednesday was my last bowl (it was Thursday I had the epiphany), and by Saturday I was in full out detox!!
It was crazy!
I woke up in the middle of the night with a splitting headache, so I drank a glass of water…
That made me need to pee a couple of hours later, but since I still had the headache I repeated this process a couple more times through out the night.
Now as an autoimmuner, you are probably thinking ”That’s no big deal, I get up multiple times throughout the night too”. Yep, and I used to also, but not since I’ve recovered. Now I sleep the whole night through (unless my diva cat, Fifi, suddenly needs to be fed at 3 am…)
Then, the entire next day I was nauseous. Any movement and I thought it might be the big one. Every time I turned my head I thought someone was stabbing my temple with an ice pick. I couldn’t concentrate on anything!
I was a mess…but couldn’t figure out why I was sick. Until I did (those bricks hurt)
So I looked at myself in the metaphorical mirror and said “Self, what were you thinkin’?”
I wouldn’t cheat on my husband, so why am I cheating on myself? Why would I disrespect myself in such a way? Why would I do something that I know would hurt me? After all the years of living like the Walking Dead, why would I want to return there!?
Pure stupidity on my part, but a lesson well learned…until the next time! (I am human after all!)
I have talked about why I don’t eat or drink poisons, meticulously detailing how the toxins in our food and water supply affect our mitochondria and why this is one of the main culprits in the development of our autoimmune diseases.
And yet what did I do?
So what should I have done instead?
I usually make my own sun butter (sunflower seed butter) cups and have a stash in the freezer ready for an afternoon treat. I’m going to give you the recipe I use.
Now two things to keep in mind: First, I’m not a food blogger, so this is a rarity and second I don’t develop recipes (I’m not that patient). So, if this is your recipe, please let me know and I’ll link to your site or remove it. (I tried to find the original on Pinterest, but there’s a BUNCH of them so I gave up) Here is that recipe if you are interested:
1 cup sun butter
1 Tbs coconut oil
1 Tbs honey
2 cups chocolate chips (I exclusive use the Enjoy Life brand)
Melt chocolate chips in a double boiler until melted.
Pour half into a mold (preferably silicone) and place into freezer until hard (about 30 min).
Stir sun butter, coconut oil, and honey in a separate small pan over medium heat until melted.
Add a spoonful in the mold over the hardened chocolate
Pour the other half of the chocolate over the sun butter mixture and freeze again.
These will have to be kept in the freezer since it is real food and the coconut oil will start to melt.
I usually make my own chocolate, but if you want that you’ll have to contact me. :)
*Phew* That was tough. I’m not the domestic type, so I always feel like a fish out of water when I go there. :)
In our next conversation we will get back to my safe space… mitochondria!
We have crated a training video that will help you to understand how to reverse your autoimmune disorder.
You can watch the '5 Steps To Reversing Autoimmune Disorders' here.
I know this has been a rather different type of conversation than we usually have, but I felt the need to share my experience with you. Why? Because we’ve all been there and done that, and we usually beat our selves up for it.
I hope this conversation helps you knowing even the “experts” screw up sometimes. Just dust yourself off and start again… :)
We all are going through quite a health journey because of our autoimmunes and we won’t always “get it right”. But we will get it, and I want you to know I’m here for you! I’ve been through it and I’ve reached the other side. I am now living a revitalized life. I encourage you to join the Facebook group Autoimmune Survival to stay in the conversation. I am there for support and for questions. I hope to see you there!
It’s important to understand that implementing small changes, like this, into your life can bring significant improvements in your health, as every little step brings you that much closer to your health goals. I suffered from an autoimmune for years, but by implementing habits like this into my life, I am able to participate in life again.
Join me to find out more of the things I did to go from Zombie to Zumba!
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